人生に素直になるように

一路聽著PJ Harvey
越來越靠近
夜的黑

[PJ Harvey / Is this Desire? / The Garden]

and he was walking in the garden
and he was walking in the night
and he was singing a sad love song
and he was praying for his life
and the stars came out around him
he was thinking of his sins
and he's looking at his song-bird
and he's looking at his wings

there inside the garden
came another with his lips said,
"won't you come and be my lover? Let me give you a little kiss"
and he came ,knelt down before him
and fell upon his knees said,
"I will give you gold and mountains if you stay a while with me"

and there was trouble taking place...

there inside the garden
they kissed, and the sun rose
and he walked a little further
and he found he was alone
and the wind, it gathered round him
he was thinking of his sins
he was looking  at his song-bird
and he was lookikng at his wings

and there was trouble taking place...

一直很喜歡PJ Harvey。
她有非常堅毅的臉。那臉雖然蠻不在乎，卻時時刻刻都像偷偷在下重要決定似的。
她的音樂也是如此。
總用著淡淡的詞，不在乎的語調，看不到笑與淚之類明顯的東西，
卻兼俱一種參與者的深刻與旁觀者的冷酷。
回家路上，聽完整張又重覆了好幾次The Garden，音量越調越大，
夜晚的黑突然很不一樣，
從玻璃外向後消逝的故事，好像都堆到昨天去了。
前方是很純粹的黑。
名符其實的什麼都沒有。
回家後接著聽完所有她的專輯，發現Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea這張
已經在ＣＤ架找不到。

人生的某些部份就是莫名其妙，無論用什麼樣的心情
小心翼翼珍惜著，
突然有一天，總是會在突然的某一天，就不知道消逝到哪裡了。
翻遍所有的架子也找不回來，
因為它們已經堆到昨天裡去而變成所謂記憶。
原來如此。
所有不見的東西，都在那個吞食一切的盒子裡面。
難怪前方是很純粹的黑，
難怪我什麼都看不見。